Chelle Baldy Adventures

Kept thinking of paranormal activity last night and wound up not sleeping good. today I’m exhausted. and I’m starting a blog. 

So my ADD pretty much gets in the way of me doing anything. From all I read the key is getting into a routine. If you get into a routine then things won’t get out of control. (Right now I’m talking about keeping things clean around the house). The thing I figure have to figure out is what routine I want to get into.

Right now even though I’m unemployed with a little help from fly lady I learned it’s important to get up and get dressed everyday. This one is tough for me because I usually stay in my Pajamas all day. I don’t ever put on proper clothes unless I’m going somewhere. However she said that it’s important to get up, brush your teeth, do your hair and make up, and get dressed all the way down to the shoes. 

I have to admit that I did that today and I actually feel better about everything. I got a lot accomplished today. Also I’m not quite as depressed. Funny. I feel more confident. So I’m going to continue this routine until their’s not a second thought of getting up and getting ready. 

I want to add to my routine something for me. Since I’m suffering from anxiety and depression somewhat. So I want to add 15-20 at least of something for me that will make me happy. I’m trying to learn to do a bunch of stuff so I’m going to make it work on a hobby. 

(Source: flylady.com)

Things have been really hard in my life. My marriage is great but because of some events that happened in June I’ve been trying to get over my Post Traumatic stuff.

I  am on anti-depressants now. I hate them. I am going to talk to the doctor about taking me off of them. I think I’m in a lot better place then I was then. I don’t think I need them anymore. They also hinder my ability to come to fruition. which is frustrating so I have to take them when I’m not going to have sex for several hours (like 4-6). It’s frustrating to me and my husband. 

The depression isn’t so bad anymore although I still have some panic attacks. I think I was more having anxiety issues then depression. I have Calonapan for those. So I think I will do just fine without the anti-depressants. 

I still haven’t started work yet but that’s alright it will come in time. 

I’m moving back to Alabama. This gives me a lot of mixed feelings. I haven’t lived in Alabama for almost four years. I’ve been wanting to move back for at least the last year. Alabama has my family now my fiancée. Why do I feel uneasy to leave. One reason is i’m going to miss everyone so much. Another reason is I’m afraid deep down in my gut that I’ve been romanticizing moving back. I’m afraid my expectations are too high or it’s going to be something I’m not happy with. 

I’m going to be thrilled to be back with my family and my man. I just don’t have friends there anymore. They’re married or moved off. 

I’m going to try this thing out see how it goes…. I’m glad Anthony told me how to spell it.